The Honest Truth

so i havent written in a long time. this blog will be very personal. the past few months i have been going through so much from relationships to friendships. and each day i have to make decisions not only for myself but the people around me. i have learned that my decisions will affect the people i love. and one of the biggest is my heart. i have given it to the most amazing, patient, loving guy ever. and every day i know i'm hurting him. you see we only have this one issue, and that one issue is make it or break it. we trust each other, love each other, and enjoy each other's company. and i would love nothing more than to be with him. i want to marry him and be with him the rest of my life. but i fear that our time has an expiration date. i have nightmares of watching him get married to someone else. i never want to see that cause i want to be that girl he marries. he stole my heart so i want his last name. i cant decided anymore because i have cried every day the past few months and i don't know where our future leads. but i can say is that i want him happy and have no regrets.